| The Betty Pages... |
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| Hi, I'm
Betty: Morwen and I want to welcome you to the Treehouse and we hope you have fun while you're here. Morwen has been saying some wonderful things about me but I would like to now state for the record that I am the lucky one to have met such a gentle and loving person who cares so deeply for others. Knowing Morwen has added so much to my life that I couldn't adequately describe it in words but in the coming pages perhaps I can give you the general idea while discussing some issues that are near and dear to my heart in the process. |
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| On Being Transgendered... |
| How we
experience ourselves is often a complex psycho-dynamic process. It
is (or should be) the way we feel most at ease and natural in our
own skin. For many transgered people, however, allowing ourselves to
be the way we feel most at ease tends to be quite a journey. I for
one, spent most of my life feeling out of place and not knowing what
I was. I could play "the game" very well and be successful
but it somehow never seemed enough. Experiencing completeness within my self proved very elusive and frankly nonexistent. I was confused by what I felt and what I was conditioned to be which, to say the least, produced constant conflict within myself. Then I ran into other transgendered individuals in various chatrooms online and they, to my complete surprise, had similar feelings and experiences to the ones I had. At last no games or pretenses and what a relief it was. I had found a new group of friends that I felt completely at ease with as well people I could be "just me" with. I began to experience complete integration within myself and many of the things I had been feeling all of my life began to make sense. My personal and spiritual growth hit warp speed and isn't about to slow down. Why I felt the way I did in the first place I really can't explain. I just know that it's right for me and it works. Some of us take longer to come around than others and I was a late bloomer. I wasn't getting any younger and I think that deep down I always knew who I was. I just had to make the move. With the support of my new friends it didn't take long and I have experienced many of the happiest times of my life in a very short period of time. I was no longer alone. It's a brave new world and I love what I see!!!!!!!! |
| Out
For the Evening!! My more formal attire and I love it!!!!!! |
| On Spirituality... |
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| I was a
junior in highschool. I had become friends with a Minister and had
just spent the weekend at his home. Sunday morning he woke me up and
said, "it's time for church". I was less than enthused but
decided to "go along" anyway. We picked up some other
folks on the way and ended up at a broken down building in an
(not so great) area of town where he held his church services. We
had a Sunday school lesson which wasn't very different than many I
had been to before. Afterwards, he was speaking, (I still don't
remember what he was saying exactly), while his wife played the
piano in the background. Then it happened! Seemingly from out of nowhere I felt this strange sensation in the pit of my stomach which began to rise from deep within me. It was if there were an explosion inside of me and I found myself weeping like a child in front on everyone and I didn't care one bit. So much pain was being taken from me and I just had to let go. I was changed forever and it was only the beginning of a journey which is ongoing as I write this. My world was exponentially expanded and nothing was as it had been. All I felt was love for everyone and everything. I wanted everyone I could talk to to know this love that I had been given. Since that day my Lord has honored me beyond words with his constant presence and love in my life. Whether you call it transformation, self actualization or salvation dosen't matter. What does matter is the core love and truth the Lord provides for us everyday and how we receive it and present it to the world. Morwen often refers to the Goddess. She and I have had long discussions on this subject and have both come to the conclusion that any apparent differences are simply a matter of semantics. The core truths as we both see them are virtually identical. Besides my Lord is many things and very versatile as are some of us. I was never very good at semantics anyway. The Lord sees our hearts and none of us can deny the truth that lies within us. |
| I went to a Renaissance Fair earlier this year near where I live. It was alot of fun with all the great costumes and of course my favorite, the jousting (I guess I was always an Amazon at heart anyway). I had Morwen on my cell the entire time describing what I was seeing while I took pictures of all the people in costume. As I was leaving I saw some folks selling medieval clothing accessories and I bought the red shall you see above. I hope you like it as much as I do! |
| There is no monopoly on the the love and truth of the Lord!! |